Email to Jesus

Father.

I don't know if this is your email or not. But I just wanted to take a moment to thank you for your grace and mercy in my life. Thank you for waiting for me so patiently, and for being faithful to me even when I failed at being faithful to you. Thank you for knowing me so well, and for molding me into the person that I am today. Please LORD, keep molding me.

Thank you Jesus, for giving up all that it is to be God and coming down here and taking the form of the most defenseless and helpless of forms. Everything is yours, and so you have the right to everything, but you gave it all up, just to come here and show me how much I am loved.

Lord, I still fail you. I still stray and allow sin in my life. I am incapable of living this life that I want with all of my heart to live. I want to live for You Jesus, to show you how much you mean to me, how much I appreciate You, how much I appreciate you and all of Your ways...how much I love You. Thank You for being patient. Thank You for Your forgiveness. Please give me the strength to be better. Please refine me and my ways. Please discipline me when I need it, and please turn Your loving face upon me even when I don't deserve it.

Jesus, I am writing today because I am so overwhelmed at the ways in which You have blessed me even though I don't deserve it. Specifically Lord, today, I want to thank You for all that You have done in Sarah's life. You have worked a miracle in her, and I can hardly stand to think about it without tears filling my eyes. Thank you, thank you, thank you, thank you. Please Lord, continue to work in her, and grow her, and refine her. She is becoming such a blessing to me, and all that I went through Lord, You are redeeming. I didn't think this was possible Lord, but I am seeing in so many ways how anything at all is possible for You.

Thank You Father for being my Father, and please help me as I begin my own road as a father. Help me Lord, because I will surely need it. Help me to be the man of God I want to be. Help me to be Your faithful and true servant. Father, You know me even better than I know me. Help me to trust You. Father, craft for me a life which satisfies me and fulfills me. Make for me a way that allows me to share with others how much I love You. Lord, please let me serve You in ways which I haven't even imagined. This life has been an incredible ride so far, all of it, and I want You to keep refining me so that I trust You completely to lead me where You want me to go. I trust You Lord. I trust You with everything. Help me to be consistent about it.

You are beautiful. You are magnificent. You are everything I ever wanted, and every day you are more and more what I don't deserve. Thank You for blessing me anyway.

I can't wait to be with You forever.

Love

Randy