But here is something I wrote today which I thought worthy of posting.
Well, I'm going to say I told you so, but I don't mean it in a negative way. I've been telling you for years that you belong to Him, and He isn't going to let you live life by your own rules. You persisted in trying to do that anyway, as all of us stubborn people are prone to doing, and you struggled mightily. I praise God though, that now you are starting to see that the way you were was negative, and I praise Him more that you are beginning to turn over the control of your life to Him. He will not let you down.
Look at my verse at the bottom of this email, John 15:15-16. This is the verse I used last year when I spoke at that youth rally at Graham Road. Over the past year I have really come to understand it better too. You have to remember a couple things about God.
First, He isn't like us, and He doesn't see us from our limited perspective, He sees us from His all knowing perspective, and He loves us no matter what we do.
Second, the word friend in this verse is translated from a word which means "The closest friends of the King". Sarah, we come to Him broken and just happy to be in the Kingdom, but He picks us up, cleans our lives up and then wants to be as close to us as a friend could ever be.
The Bible also says: "Behold, I stand at the door and knock; if anyone hears My voice and opens the door, I will come in to him and will dine with him, and he with Me" (Rev 3:20) That means that if we just open the door up and let Him come in, He will share everything we have (which is all His in the first place) and He will share all that He has with us. It really is as simple as that.
You know how I know? Because I own a condo, and I'm buying a house, and you're in California, and I have a good job and so on and so on.
So, since He wants to be our friend, we have to treat Him like our friend too. And that means that we have to be loyal like a friend and faithful like a friend. I told you a couple of months ago when you said you didn't know how to love everyone like Jesus did that you should think of how you love me and treat everyone like you (were SUPPOSED to) treat me. lol.
And we should do that because "If we confess our sins, He is faithful and righteous to forgive us our sins and to cleanse us from all unrighteousness." (1 John 1:9) We can always count on Him. We can't always count on anyone else in our lives, not always, but Him we never have to worry about.
Sometimes it might seem like he's forgotten us, but I heard something else that I hold onto when things don't seem to be going my way: "The choices that God makes for our lives are the same choices we would make if we knew everything God knows."
So, I am glad that God is breaking you down and that you are seeing all of these things happen which are not coincidences. Now you have an understanding of why I am getting married in December, Amy and I have been experiencing that too almost since the first phone call we had. I knew He loved me before Sarah, but I didn't believe that I was worthy of all the things He is blessing me with now. I was just happy to be in the Kingdom, ya know?
Now, I can see how He is cleaning off my life, and He is showing me just how much He loves me as His friend and wants to bless me and show me that. And all I did was be loyal, and trustworthy. And that's all He requires of you too.
Does this sound familiar...Do the things you're supposed to do and not just things you want to do....lol. I know I said that to you 1000 times, but it sounds to me like you're finally getting it and I thank God for that. That really isn't my own statement though, it's just a paraphrase of: "He must increase, I must decrease" (John 3:30)